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Wednesday, 12 October 2005
Getting to know me...
Mood:
 a-ok
Now Playing: metalica
Topic: Me stuff
My favourite things...
* Tea!!!
* My boyfriend
* My dudes!
* All the hugs I get at college.
* Kisses
* Food
* chatting to kineston about piercings for ages!
* piggy back races!
* mega seshes!
* Chillin
* Causing trouble with sophie and amy
* melissas bullshit stories!
* James throwing collin's books around the room
* English lessons- me and amy!!
* Home videos
* dying my hair
* getting pissed and running wild
* getting in trouble
* reminiscing on fun times!
* being in my group
* having fun.
* getting stoned
* telling everyone about our school days!
* happy things
* being loud!
Posted by footsteps18
at 9:45 PM BST
life
Mood:
 chillin'
Now Playing: Joseph Arthur
Topic: Life
Sometimes these blogs seem to provoke misery, I just feel like being miserable when Im writing them, but from now on I am making a conscious effort to not be miserable, because life is what you make of it.
So, yeah life is full of ups and downs, sometimes I feel totally overwhelmed by certain things. Children, money, jobs? No my life should be...friendship, drugs, sex and piercings! When mixed together I come up with a very strange combination! Children, drugs, jobs, piercings, money, friends and sex. (Not sex with friends though...unless its amy! or melissa! hehe) (and not children on drugs either...wierd. Little stoner kids running around!)
Maybe ive got the best of both worlds having everything all at once. Whatever I have or dont have though Ive got every reason to smile. Sometimes sacrifices have to be made to get where you want to go, and where I want to go is where I am now. Totally, madly in love.
Posted by footsteps18
at 8:56 PM BST
Tuesday, 11 October 2005
Friendship
Mood:
 not sure
Now Playing: Queen- Best friend.
Topic: Friends
Friends are the family we choose for ourselves are they not?
To me my friends are the cement that hold everything together in my life. Some walk in and out of your life while others leave footprints in your heart. (I didnt know I was the master of cheese). If a person can inspire you to write a blog about them then they are pretty special.
Sometimes when Im sitting alone i just start laughing, thinking of a memory given to me by a friend. Other times I have been feeling lonely but theres always someone there that can cheer me up. theres no unconditional bond between two friends as between a mother and child or a brother and sister, a friendship is a chosen bond created out of love.
Anyone that can actually make you enjoy a place of education deserves a medal, and my friends d for putting up with me and my fucked up life for so long! Times when some turn away from you but others stay true make you realise who your true friends are.
To have friends with unconditional acceptance- Sophie,Amy and Melissa. If I had watched you grow up and turn out like I am now I probably would have killed you for being so stupid, but did you ever turn your backs? No.
To have friends who love you anyway- Stephen, if the tables were turned I would have walked away. So yeah you couldnt keep your mouth shut but I dont care, I owe you everything because if it wasnt for you and your constant wanting to go out with me and always hanging around me I would have died during them few months. Maybe its you I have hurt mor ethan my other friends, but you love me anyway. Thats friendship.
College peeps- College was shit before I met so may cool people! Sophie and Amy my dudes forever, The old stoner crew-Matt in the hat, James, Sonya and leanne. The history crew Big Mtatt, scott,Mark, Natalie, Daniel and skittles. My beautifully pierced and tatooed buddys Kineston and Johnno. The new found chums lindsay, Aaron, Donna, Mike and Jake. Friends make the world go round...or is that money?
Gone but not forgotten- Daniel the muppet failing and leaving. Big Chris what a legend! Little kayleigh and Rachel my band! Matt in da hat the little stoner! Ah good times...
Posted by footsteps18
at 10:20 PM BST
Updated: Wednesday, 12 October 2005 8:21 PM BST
Holes.
Mood:
 smelly
Now Playing: Queen
Right now my head is full of words, too jumbled to write down. Some angry words, mostly upset words. In my life theres only been two people who understood me, or even made any attempt to. One of those people is dead and the other seems to want to be. I thought id come past the stage of self-pitying, but yet here i am again. Doing just that.
People think I'm too young to understand anything,that i have not experienced enough of life. Well what i have experienced has given me an understanding that most people will never have. In 17 years on this earth I have met God face to face, I have experienced loss that will never go away, I have a hole left that will never completely heal but i have also found someone who fills in that hole. Maybe I was wrong in thinking that I could fill in a missing part in there life aswel.
Posted by footsteps18
at 9:45 PM BST
Updated: Tuesday, 11 October 2005 9:52 PM BST
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